Current Mood : Still
Currently listening To: Realize - Colbie Caillat

At first I thought I had 30 posts, so I was overjoyed and over the moon about it. Then, because I have this crazy habit of re-reading my blog posts from time to time, I checked just to make sure.

I had one draft post which contained basically nothing which I totally forgot about it since I think it was automatically saved one of those days when I tried to blog in class but was naturally (obviously) distracted by other things that demanded my attention more. Like fighting/arguing/throwing sarcasm at B.K. =)

So boo hoo. I need another post.

Which is really disappointing because I thought I had done better. Ah well.

Today I strive to be positively happy where nothing shitty can get into my way and make me down howsoever. It is a beautiful Saturday where the sun is not that hot, it's not raining storms again...yet. The weather is perfect! So I want my Saturday to be perfect too. Since it's been such a turmoil of emotional events the last few days.

I hate my own internal conflicts.

It's amazing how long I can stay angry at myself =/ I was angry because I know I was being selfish in many ways towards other people, even though it was just in thoughts. Which I feel even more guilty of because people will then think I'm all good and accepting but they don't know what goes on in my head, which can be totally nasty and selfish. And I don't want to ever behave like that anymore, because I should learn to be a better and more accepting person. I can help it, so I will. I just need someone to slap me whenever I fall back into that state of mind again. =X

On another note. It's so cool to fool around with GoogleMap. It's like Google Earth, but it uses the map format instead. I think I just found my house!!!! oooh And my old secondary school, where I used to live in Port Dickson, Ipoh and old house in KL!!! Oh and where I buried my dog too..... wow cool even the school I went to in Japan for a year. XD

But of course I will not post it here, was tempted to at first however have now decided against it as it is better for my safety. I mean, I suppose that is the smartest thing to do, like who the hell would post his/her exact location on the internet readily available for sickos to track and stalk down?

Then since it's a map, I can look it up easily on any given day before travelling to unknown places. I could probably find my way better with the help of advance visualization. It's amazing how I didn't think of this sooner, it's so helpful! The details of KL is so amazing! Oh I found SYUC already.

That's neat.