CCP project -thoughts

Current Mood : Stressed
Currently listening To: Broken and Beautiful - Mark Schultz

Life has not been very pretty lately.

I think I just wasted my Monday break. Sigh. How to make it up for it now?

The CCP is driving me insane. I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate website development. I think it's also because I hate it so that it seems so much harder to do. I'm already done with the essay and tv commercial and still tweaking the marketing booklet (yes! even though I had vowed it would be the first to be completed it didn't happen...) but the website is...

ugh.

I don't wanna do it really. Cause I just. Suck.

But I know I can't give up either because my marks depends on it and I can never forgive myself if I did. These are the mind breaking moments when I ask myself yet again: Why oh~ why did I take ComTech?

Sometimes I wonder if all the mental trauma is worth the knowledge and experience gained in this class @_@;;; On a good day I would say yes but my braincells are yelling in defiance while suiciding.

Oh mai gawds I hope I get an "A" for ComTech even though I know now that the chances are awesomely slim. Ever since the 2nd half of the semester I felt like I could no longer catch up to produce lovely things, well not like I have ever been able to but its just gotten worst. So that would mean that the chances of my grades falling back ever since is also very high. Arghhhhhhhhh~~~ Yes, good bye self confidence. It was nice hanging it out with you while it lasted.

T__________T

I am not going to give up. I will still try my best in tackling this CCP, finishing up my required blogposts, take the two exam papers next week and also remembering to breathe. I need to BREATHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

Why does productivity not come to me nowz? =<

Also, why is podbean.com being such a retard to me right now? It just won't upload my podcasts! Argh. Will upload both podcast 2 and 5 tonight no matter what it takes. I don't care. I am on the verge of wanting to sue something.