distracted

Current Mood : Distracted
Currently listening To: Mutterings in the class

Somehow, it is seemingly impossible to even attempt to complete any major tasks in class. Despite it being a total waste of an hour half of my life every day in class, I would not be able to find the inspiration or the motivation to work. So unless it's a minor assignment, like say blogging for the course blog, or completing something along that line of 'important but not immediately important'... I would rarely get anything done by maximizing the usage of class time.

Tsk

A total waste, yes. I suppose that is just how I work. Or don't work. Whichever term that works.

Probably due to my picky and somewhat solitary nature, I have the tendency to perform faster and work better in a darker, less crowded space. If I were at home or anywhere private which has minimal noise effects, I would then require music to cure my habit of needing to multitask. I can concentrate with only specific types of distractions hovering around me. Being in class is definately not one of them.

So what gives?

I make up for it at night, or during lunch breaks in college. Those are the two prime times where I finding working can be an addictive joy, especially if there is food and snacks around to sustain my drive. These are the times where I rarely stop unless I was being forced to, or when fatigue has finally taken its toll on me. Which, again has been rather frequent lately.

I probably need more exercise now, since the feeling of constant lethargic-ness has been looming.

Now that we have a website project under construction which is due rather too soon, time seems to be flying ever so fast. Before I could get a grip on the movement of time, today is already Thursday. Oh wow, like that is pretty freaky. There is not much time for delays now, as there are too many ideas swirling around in my head it's driving me dizzy. Ideas that come at odd times, but usually ones that never appear during ComTech. Being in class actually tends to drain my train of thoughts into nothing-ness. It could be when I'm on the road, or when I listen to a particular music or watching a particular design, just not during ComTech. The only problem I have is transfering ideas into the darn project. Like I roughly know how I want it, I just don't know how to make it happen.

I always lack the know-hows on that particular portion.

Now what?

Die lo.... what to do? Do slowly lo....

Since it's not like I have a choice, right? Have to start learning from scratch, practise and learn along the way. Hopefully my skills are not as blunt as I fear them to be. I could probably produce something rather decent if I were to try hard enough.

*gulps*

I hope....