FUCKING UP

Current Mood : Lost / Depressed
Currently listening To: Speed Over Beethoven - DDR

This is so not my week when it comes to Comtech.

The past week have been such a crazy blur I have not been doing anything right. At all. I wonder if it's the constant pain I'm having now that's distracting me so much. I'm not thinking straight or right, clearly my judgments are being clouded. I should be awarded "the blurest/careless student" medal or something. Or, I should just go jump off a cliff now. That sounds so much better.

Comtech

It's getting harder than I initially would have liked to think. Suddenly everything is moving all at once on a very furious note to me. I need to pace up my adaption level before I serious fall behind.

Because I already am falling.

I found that I've been making mistakes one after the other a whole lot lately. My article review that was not re-posted to Turnitin when I thought it was, my Job Flyer that I passed up in the wrong area of Black Board. Those were still pretty minor (even though no less upsetting since I have no marks now =<), as compared to what I realized next. My brain needs reassessment. I don't know why, but I think sub-cautiously I have been taking things waaaaaaaayyyyy too literally for my own good, without using logic. We were supposed to make a job flyer of our own. We were supposed to go online and find for a suitable job along with its descriptions. We *obviously* were supposed to edit the descriptions to make it into our own text. I am such a simple minded idiot. Idiotic me decided that I would conveniently forget that point and went ahead to cut and paste the descriptions. I wonder what was I thinking at that time. Or why was I not thinking. It surprises me how, through out the entire production of the flyer, and many editing of the text space and all, it did not even occur to me that my actions were that of plagiarism. *headdesk*

oh. I suck.

I need to settle this with Mr.Avila on Monday, or as soon as possible. I need to get my peace of mind back. I swear my heartbeat stopped a very long time when I read my assessment mail. And see if I can get my record cleaned. Haha =/ I have no justifications for my actions now that will not sound like an excuse. All I can say is that it was not done on purpose. and it will NEVER happen again. Once bitten, forever shy.

Now I'm waiting for my Proposal Feedback to load. It's taking very..... very.... long. I just hope that it isn't going to be anymore bad news. I don't think my heart can handle it anymore.




I hope you're not too disappointed with your dumb student yet Mr.Avila. =/